Bad day

Have you ever felt like no matter what you did, the whole world was against you and it was doing it’s best to shut every idea and plan you have down? That’s what I felt like today. I felt like no matter how hard I tried, every time I came up with a plan for life that I was sure would work, something would happen and my world would be changed again and I would have to go back to point A and rethink my plan. I hate this. Today, I was having a very good day. I was happy. And then, around 1 o’clock, my Teddy Bear texts me and says that he and his dad got into a fight. So I get on Skype and we talk about it. Apparently all our plans for my move there in January have been put on momentary halt until we can figure some things out. Such as who I’m going to be living with. The original plan was that myself, and another friend would be getting an apartment together and my boyfriend would continue to live with his parents for the next 6 months to a year while we actually get some time to really date and stuff like a normal couple would do. This was a great plan we thought. Until my friend’s parents told her that if she moves out in January, they won’t continue to support her financially with school. However, if she waits a couple years and gets her Bachelor’s degree before moving out, they will help her. So, she agrees and puts my bf and I in a pinch. Now what do we do? Get a place just us right away and wait for her to get her degree and then have her join us, or have me stay here and stay 1500 miles apart for the next couple of years? So, we decided on the first choice because it’s just really stressful and hard to be this far apart. We know that living in the same apartment, especially it just being us isn’t generally considered a good choice, and it’s not what we would prefer, but we really saw no other options, and we made a promise that nothing would happen that we wouldnt’ do with someone else living there. We dont’ want to be like every other couple who moves in together and then woops, the girl gets pregnant and they either get married, or just continue to date or even worse, break up because of all the stress. We would rather just not take the risk at all and keep things safe. Besides, we both would rather wait till we are married. It may not be the easiest thing, but we both know that it’s the right thing, and that’s what matters most. So, that aside, that’s what the plan was. Until today when he dad decided to blow that plan out the door. He too says that if my wonderful Teddy Bear moves out in January, and gets a place with me, he won’t support him at all. So, now we are back to the drawing board; only this time, there is no plan B to turn to. Now we must come up with something else and it’s not easy at all. He then remembered later (after I had gone to my room and cried for about half an hour and vented to the friend who I was going to move in with in the original plan) that his brother and brother’s girlfriend just bought a house together and it has a spare room that they were going to rent to said brother’s friend. But, luckly for us, brother’s friend for some reason unbeknownst to us, won’t be living in this spare room so it’s free. Now we are hoping that my bf’s brother’s gf (that’s a mouthful) can convince my boyfriend’s brother to let me stay there. Of course I would be pitching in rent wise and I would help out around the house and stuff, so I wouldn’t be a burden to them, but he could still very easily say that he would rather not, and if that’s what happens, I’m not sure what we will do. I know we will figure something out, I’m just afraid that that something will either one, result in my staying here a couple more years, which I dont’ want to do (Even though I love it here, I just miss him too much), or it will drive a huge wedge between him and his father, and that’s the last thing I want.

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